Yeah today was extremely slack. I don't know why. but I love to slack la. Oh today is my cousin's birthday and although I think he will never see it here, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!" (: 

I haven't posted an entry in a blardy long time. partly cos I had nothing to write, no time to write and lazy to write. I just realised something on thursday, it is, some guys are stupid until the extent where you feel like they are really 白痴. I'm sorry to say that even 白痴 is too light a word I think. And this is not relating to relationship hor. Ching would know and she probably feels the same. But never mind its over already, so I should be more peaceful now and not get irritated.

Someone said I'm like very happy today. Maybe cos I'm not so stressed after handing in the FA 2 and commiss. And why not be happy? Life is supposed to be enjoyed what. So why bother to spend an entire life like you are so 痛苦.

Oh wells, its 10 Jan 2009 already. soon it'll be feb and my birthday! don't know if i'll celebrate, and it hasn't been my 习惯 to celebrate for donkey years. haha I sound like I'm so old. I should come up with a wishlist. OK I'll try one now, here.

Wishlist:
- I need clothes la. I just need clothes. It's a necessity for me now cos they're geting old and I haven't bought new ones in years maybe? So maybe T-shirts/shirts/blouses?
- Earrings. Yeah I go and pierce already never buy earrings. so clever hor.
- Aha yeah I need shoes. eh but not good to give people shoes hor. nvm I go buy myself.
- Eyelash curling treatment. haha this one suggested by lao ren and xiao ren. actually I don't mind la.

Ok that's all I can think of for now. it's not exhaustible, so i may add more along the way. haiz now I have to go sub more articles, but I facebook for a while first ba.

This is week nine. And I don't feel like doing work at all. like someone save me. ok super drama, but no one will save me. awww...thats sad.
see what week nine does to you. First you lose your senses. You start talking to yourself (a bit like this). Then you don't realise what's going on around you. These are just a few symptoms, if I get more I'll tell you.

Oh you get a bit crappy too. oh well, i picked up my violin last night, and played again. not very likely violin songs, but i played 茉莉花 and 月亮. wow surprise!! I was playing from the chinese music score also, those with numbers. I usually play according to the five lined score when I play violin, but I can read and convert the numbers into notes for my violin. and if you didnt know i'm a chinese classical music fan as well. how wonderful right. I was in Chinese orchestra before, so maybe that explains it. I played a damn 淑女 instrument (扬琴) at first, its that trpezium shape thingy where you hit with two bamboo sticks. aha...after that I switched to cello, cos there wasn't enough cellists. It wasnt cos I wasnt good in my previous instrument ok. Cello made me even more chor lo. but nvm, cello gave some sort of a love-hate thing. long story that I don't wna talk about now.

maybe cello made me even more me, if you know what i mean. I was, am, maybe still is chor lo. but other female cellists arent as guyish as me. my kor's seniors were girls who played cello and when they aren't playing cello, they sit with their legs crossed. but I am just different. I wasn't born to be a girl la. My brother was I think. If he were a girl, he would be a 超级大美女, even my mum wanted a girl first. oh wells, I can't help it, I live think, eat and sit different. welcome to maineland.

I don't know how to start on the lit review. HOW???

给我一首歌的时间...

everything I just typed disappeared. yup thank you very much for that. anyway today celebrated 外婆's birthday. actually mummy's and 外婆's b'day fall on the same day on the gregorian calendar but according to chinese calendar its different days. so many people were here just now. maybe about 25 plus?

Yeah and I had to burn a few CDs for my aunt so I was on my mac. then the aunties started coming into the room and then they started "you see everytime I see you, you are on the laptop, never see u without it one leh." yeah I admit I spend a lot of quality time with my mac ok. but I do work on it what so obviously have to look at it.Haiz nvm, they don't understand cos they haven't heard of the word homework for a super long time, so they are forgiven lo.

And there were like five people who are at least ten years younger than me. even my cousin was like "next year 我就二字头了“. I'll be like that in two years time too. It's sort of scary, cos as you get older you'll have more responsibilities. I guess its just that I've always been 吊儿郎当。

Little marcus was so cute again today. when everyone left and it was time for him to go home too, he didnt want to leave so he crawled under the table to hide. so daddy left to get the car first and come back to get him later, but he thot he could stay so he started running about and jumping on the sofa. then after a while daddy came back to get him. he still didnt want to go home, so daddy said that he had to ask mummy first, but he knew that if he went downstairs he would be dragged into the car, so he didnt want to go downstairs. my mummy said she carry him, then he agreed to go down. but then when downstairs, the maid just grabbed him and squeezed him into the car. he started crying la, so 心疼 sometimes. the last time he wanted to come to our house he cried too. dont know why he likes our house also. we always ask him "what are you going to do here?" then he will just stare at us with the don't know face. haha so cute, even though he's quite attention-seeking.

坚持我对花文文学的执著，沉迷于歌词和文字的世界，不管别人异样的眼光，自己感受，自己欣赏文字的美，慢慢的爱上它。

Hmmm...been feeling really stressed lately. not sure about what also. maybe cos i need to get a cca, i have projects and assignments to do, i don't really understand what's a seasonal, i need to go learn driving before the membership expires and i think the list goes on. feeling a little hyper today. not sure why also. probably I'm in the mood to do work, which is really good. That means I'll be really productive and finish a lot of hw.

Just changed my msn nick to something which, I find a bit stupid, cos it doen't make sense. I think I'm getting weirder and weirder, I like to rhyme my words, even if it doen't mean anything. oh someday someone will appreciate my weirdness. I feel I should take up violin again. I want to learn piano also. I'm serious, but 力不从心. I must be able to play violin properly, so that my life won't be a waste. 

Ooooh this is so cool my first entry!! :D ok, not so cool after thinking about the name choosing process while setting up my account. anw lao ren asked me to come get an account so I'm like here! so guai. yeah so I suppose she'll be the only one reading my entries, and anyway she also said "don't need to update one, just come and read my entries can already." yeah ok I'm so ready to that when assignment deadlines are coming right. Today just isn't the right day for me, had to go to school for an eight o'clock class, then after that a nice, long 4-hour break. Went to the library during that break and tired to take a small nap. But ... suddenly one group of guys were like crowding near the sofa there, a few metres away from us I think, then they started saying stuff like "who sleeps like that, so ugly" or something along that line. yeah I got a little pissed cos they were really noisy and I think they were talking about me, (like hello, who else was sleeping other than me). but nvm that they said I look ugly when I was sleeping, haha cos I dont think they are s.h.u.a.i even when not sleeping. ooops I feel really evil now, but nvm I can afford to be a little evil sometimes :)

yeah so after that four hour break, went for radio. Class was like quite slack, cos our ideas were already approved, but none of our brains were working to think of one more segment, so in the end we decided not to do another segment. Haiz didn't get to play the game that lao ren said we would play. Do you really mean that you can slap people when you play the game? Or did I like hear wrongly? haha these days I feel like I'm a bit chi dun. yeah also cos I didn't know how to 反驳 when they said that mr wang was better than mr chou. Don't even know why they can 扯 until that topic during radio class. but anw i still like mr chou's style of music better. oh he was in Life today also. 

Ok I shall stop here today. My eyes are like going to pop out if i stare at this screen any longer...